Sunday, July 08, 2007
Of heat and hypocrites.
Its ssooooo bloody hot!!! STUPID freakin @#$@#% Malaysian weather!!! I guess i never really noticed how HOT it is till i went away... I've caught a cold and sore throat because of the blistering HEAT!! Okay, maybe it was the food that did it but i rather blame something thats not my fault... haha! Everyday its like an OVEN in this stupid Sauna trap!!! argh!!! I feel like a roasted pig!! only i'm not fat and i'm not a pig...
I used to dream of it snowing here in Malaysia... how all the padi fields would die, all the plantations would freeze over... basically our economy grinding to a halt..but i dont care! haha! as long as its cool and nice. i mean, i dont hear any eskimos complaining they dont have padi for rice or rubber exports.. we can all just eat whale blubber anyway..
Warning: sensitive reading. Dont read if have asthma.
Sometimes i dont like going to church. i mean not that i dont like church in itself, its cos of the people there. I can kind of sympathize with non-christians who dont like church cos they say its full of stuffy upper crust people who just want your money. I'm not saying every church is like that, just certain ones. I really love my hometown church, and i adore our cosy one in Canberra.
I still remember one church where the people would not talk to newcomers. only the pastor would do it. The congregation are so cold, and still wonder and pray why they cant expand?? One of the churches i love is St. Paul's Church somewhere in Malaysia. I have fond memories of the first time i visited there (for a camp!) and the kids there we're sincerely warm and friendly, like really wanted to know me and be friends.
It really left an impact on me, and I told myself thats what i want to be, who i want to be towards others. But sometimes its hard. especially for small-town churches.
I think in psycho its called group mentality? Sometime after the camp some other kids visited our church. I think i was one of the few who actually tried to be open. (cheh, puji sendiri....) i dont blame the other kids. its not cos they despised or were too proud, its cos they were too scared. or shy.
I call it comfort zone. after awhile they'll mix and be friends, but its always awkward in the beginning.but its this beginning that makes a lasting impression on other people! like it or not humans tend to judge others based on first impressions.
I dont really hate or blame small-town mentality (which cant be helped!) but the fact that some people dont do as they preach! pretend, put on a mask, but only for sunday. you're giving other christians a bad name! I'm not talking about any church in particular, just churches in general.
I know that even sometimes i fall into this trap. and i really hate it and feel bad when i do. everyone's not humanely perfect.but in God we are.
So to all those pretenders and mask-wearers out there, do what i do. Say sorry to God for not showing them unbiased love and ask for His strength (cos God knows its hard) then treat others with humility and...guess i've started preaching..so i'll stop here!
Long story short: often its not the people we see that are dirty, its our eyes that are clouded.
posted by Jared Wong at 11:25 AM, | 
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